Journal Entry 135

The last couple of days have been the hardest days that I have ever worked as a new registered nurse. During the first day of the week, I had a patient who fell to the ground as I was helping him to the bathroom. According to the safety precautions, I needed to have two people assist him to the bathroom, and I was planning on de-escalating the precautions to where he would only need one person to help him walk to the bathroom. However, I had poor nursing judgment, and I should’ve asked for another person to help me. He eventually fell. Interestingly, I read Proverbs 16 that day, and came across verse 18. It says, “Pride goes before destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall.” I was being prideful by not asking for help when I should have. I thought I could handle the situation. The man had this disease where his feet would shuffle and he would be unbalanced at times. I knew better not to do what I did, yet I was blindsided by my pride. I made a fool out of myself that day, and I feel like one of my co-workers despise me for that. Thankfully, the patient was not hurt, and I was able to him fall graciously.

The day after that I spent over 16 hours in the hospital because the workload was overwhelmingly grand. One thing that many people do not realize when they consider nursing is the documentation that is involved. I spent a lot of time documenting what I did, what the patient’s did, what I saw, etc. If I did not document then I do not have proof that I did it. Of course, anyone can lie about their documentation or unintentionally enter the wrong information by mistake. I constantly prayed for God to help me to remember the most important details and to make the right assessments. I sense the battle to be a man integrity and to guard it. I asked a couple of people to pray for my spiritual condition because I knew it affected how I care for people physically. The Lord answered. Proverbs 17 says, “A merry heart does good, like medicine, but a broken spirit dries the bones.”

Yesterday, which was my last shift of the week was much easier. I was more efficient and effective in my care. Proverbs 18:14 says, “The spirit of a man will sustain him in sickness, but who can bear a broken spirit?” It is amazing how we are created in such a way where our spirituality transcends our physical nature. A man can be dying in cancer yet rejoicing that he knows the Lord!

Today is the first day of the G3 Conference in Atlanta, Georgia. I have an opportunity to hear very sound teaching from men of God. I am very fatigued from work to be excited, but I am very thankful that the Lord open this door for me. There is also a golden opportunity to see Jake and Jason face to face. I really miss them, and I hope the Lord bless my time with them. The last time I spoke with Jake, he said he is just trying to be happy with his life. Yet, Proverbs 16:20 says, “He who heeds the word wisely will find good, and whoever trusts the LORD happy is he.” Verse 25 says, “There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way of death.” The reality is everyone will face death; his body will eventually perish. His spirit and soul will face the living God.


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