I will the course of Your commandments, for You shall enlarge my heart. ~Psalm 119:32
When I first got saved or in my very early years of being saved, I had this expectation of being transformed in His image from one degree of glory to another (2 Corinthians 3:18) every Lord’s day. The Lord recently brought to my attention that I have lost this and that I must have this expectation again. I must persistently bring it to prayer, and I must be consistent in this race. It is a marathon, not a sprint. The Lord must continually enlarge, stretch, broaden, expand, deepen, and transform my inner being that I may continually run in the way of His commandments. A person who weight trains and stretch his muscles in between exercises will have better results than the person who does not stretch himself. A person who does not stretch will become stiff. He is more prone to severe injury. In order for the muscle fibers to grow back larger and stronger, it must be pulled and ripped. More importantly, a weight trainer does not see dramatic results over night. It takes time; patience is a necessary character trait of an excellent athlete. Likewise, for the believer.
So often I become introspective and proudly beat myself up for not making the progress that I expect. The truth is I grew so quick at the start of my Christian life because my eyes were focused on the glories of Jesus Christ and not on my growth itself. Of course, as a seasoned Christian, I am more familiar with God’s word as I was 7 years ago. However, it is an arrogant mindset to subtly assume that I already know everything I need to know about God. Furthermore, I do not apply the many truths that I already know!
This marathon that Christians are on can definitely put someone against the edge and make him feel like he will not make it. We can grow very weary, frustrated, and depressed. However, this marathon is fairly simple. The commands given by God are simple. His ultimate wills for our lives are not a mystery puzzle that needs to be solved by a scholar. Psalm 119:32 is a taste of a simple prayer offered to the Lord by David. The Lord has already promised to give us the Holy Spirit. Is there anything too difficult for the LORD?
Therefore, I believe the Lord will change my life forever during tomorrow’s service. It may not be dramatic but subtle. It may be just a couple of bricks being added to something that will become a mansion. The next verse in this Psalm says, “Teach me, O Lord, the way of Your statutes, and I shall keep it to the end.” I think about how Jesus increased in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men (Luke 2:52). It is very interesting how Jesus spent 30 years preparing for 3 years of ministry. May my life be empowered by the Holy Spirit as Christ’s life on this earth was.