Yesterday I worked at the nursing home on the Lord’s Day. There is a lot of talk regarding what day is the Lord’s Day and the Sabbath, and whether we should keep the Sabbath or not (and how). I know that Jesus argued that people can do good on the Sabbath (Matthew 12:12; Mark 3:4; Luke 6:9). I am also aware that Paul talked warned the Colossians about legalism relating to food, festivity, and “a Sabbath” (ESV) or “sabbaths (NKJV). I was planning on studying Covenant and New Covenant theology but more importantly the bible itself. I wanted to read Charles Leiter’s book: The Law of Christ. However, I shamefully admit that I had not been as disciplined during my month off of school as I want to. I really like how Leiter quotes so many scripture for the reader to refer to. One brother told me that when he finishes reading that book and studying the proof texts, he will either end up agreeing or disagreeing due to scripture not the frameworks.
I recently watched a movie, made in the 1980’s, called Chariots of Fire. It was mentioned in a systematic study that I watched online. What stuck out to me was one of the runners refused to run on the Sabbath Day (which I assumed he was referring to the Lord’s Day also). Therefore, I have been thinking of these topics. After nursing school, I will be able to spend more time on these issues. And, of course, I must ask myself why. I want to be obedient to God and walk with a clear conscience, despite my imperfections.
As far as my Christian life, I have honestly been humbled, and God is teaching me to stop looking at my performance for joy and idolizing myself. I realized that the majority of my prayers focus on me overcoming sin and keeping the commandments instead of focusing knowing Christ more and more (which eventually leads to obedience).
I am almost finishing up Oswald’s biography Abandoned to God. It has been a pleasure to get a glimpse of his life and God’s fingerprints in it. I was pleased to see the author included his journals that expressed his struggles with sin, a more realistic picture of a Christian. When we talk about another brother or sister, there is a temptation to speak only about the good and not the bad. I believe you can do both, while thinking the best about that person. I can imagine authors needing much wisdom and praying for it when they try to portray an accurate picture of someone’s life through writing. I read yesterday: “The refining pot is for silver and the furnace for gold, And a man is valued by what others say of him.” (Proverbs 27:21). In a general sense, this is true. Of course, there are times when a person can be deceptive about his or her image. Another reality is that no one knows a person’s heart or thoughts unless the person confesses it or reveals it (Proverbs 27:19). And, no one can follow a person a around 24/7.
Therefore, I do not expect people to know exactly how I am spiritually doing through this journal for a number of reasons. 1) I will not spend hours recording all of the details. 2) If I record all of my sins for the day or week then some will stumble while reading my blog. 3) I simply don’t remember everything.
Isn’t it amazing that Christ died for all of a man’s sins, even the ones that he cannot recall?